X Factor or The Miseducation of a former DJ Princess

Yeah,,, the title alone already has a few tongues wagging, a few waiting with baited breath to read past this intro and then there are those who are reading this thinking, " who is going to think this is about "me" ( insert anybody) or as I like to call it.. To whom it  may concern.. but no worries it concerns  all of you, us we, you, he, she, me!

I belong to a few groups in cyberspace and someone ask a good question. " What do you do when one  woman has your heart and the other has your back? As I was deep into the conversation I realized. You go with the one who has your heart. Cause you will only shit on the one who has your back. 

Now you may  be wondering what in THEE hell this has to do with the House music scene.. well it has a lot to do with it. 
..as most of the people I deal with are in that scene and I have seen far too many tears from my sister's.

1st I'm going to offer an apology to The House Gallery Cats cause I had full intentions on writing about them for the next Blog. 

But then Lauryn Hill came on the radio and I had to listen as I always do to each and every word of that song.  I thought about that question.." who do you love? I thought about the conversations I have had with DJs both locally and globally who have said they had a woman who did not understand them who did not believe in them. Hell one DJ told me he and his then wife had actually drawn a line through the house all because if his love for the craft. "WOW how sad" was my thought. 

I've known DJs to get with and and marry some women who, once that ring goes on the finger or that comfort zone sets in, wants that dj to stop doing what he loves.

But then I thought about some of my House sisters who have understood and have had the backs of their men be it pseudo boyfriend or real..for real for real boyfriend/husband.

I thought about some of the beautiful sisters who have been so  disrespected.. - cause fellas we DO talk. We may not name names but the situation(s) are still the same. You fucked faced retards are all the same. ( and I say that in a loving way) The ones who used these sisters always cry that same bullshit, " I'm married to the music"! to that I say..."NIGGA WHAT"!! well.. the music ain't married nor is she faithful to your ass! ( and when I say NIGGA - Im talking to yall white boys too) 

I've known some of my House sisters that have helped you build your brand.. sell your wears.. promote ya parties, take you to gigs.. been your biggest cheerleader only to continuously get treated so so badly.. but your heart belongs to a woman who didn't or doesn't understand your passion. I've seen some of you use these women who want to see you get to that place you've been trying to go since you started spinning. 

But here's the thing once a man get's his heart hurt, he will take ALL his toys and bust up out the sandbox. Some of you are too silly and simple minded to see that with this woman who has your back.. who has put up with more shit than a little bit could build mountains together.. but no,  please by all means run back to the one you love the one who has your heart.. cause she is the one who rolls over your and makes you feel..less than however she is also the one who does not support or understand your dreams and passion ( yes this is a run on sentence) 


I was once a DJ Princess then I became a Queen and I have never known a Queen to need a Prince( yeah... marinate on that for a hot second) .. the key word is "NEED" sister's you are your own Queendom and if these middle ages boys don't appreciate all that you have done FOR them, then be done WITH them! You see they were so busy reaching for Jupiter they neglected to see Venus was right within arms distance.

I was disrespected on SO many levels  - wow how much I have grown... ( can't fully blame the dude cause this is MY life and when its YOUR life its up to YOU to accept or not accept bullshit! My point being we BELIEVED in y'all..ran you from gig to gig and in some cased city to city., only to have your utter disrespect for us thrown in our faces..

There have been public displays of stupidity.. I know cause I have been involved in one or two in my House head lifetime. 

Ya can't continue to treat good people like shit. You can't continue to bite the hand that LOVES you.. cause one  day... oooh one day all that shit you pulled with come back and bite you on the ass ( or other parts of your anatomy) - then want to yell.. " I brought her on the set" Yeah brotha.. and she helped elevate your sorry ass existence! So you need to be thankful and grateful and mostly...respectful!

One sister told me the DJ she was dating told her, " I have no more use for you" that hurt MY feelings and it made me realize Karma has every ones address and you WILL have a seat at the karma cafe and get EXACTLY what is being served! Some of you have nothing but a record collection., but you have a woman who is your Harriet Tubman your Sojourner Truth trying to get you to the promise land..but you want to stay on the plantation and continue to be a slave to madness. I guess the saying is true.., " hurt people., hurt people"! Are you hurt because you haven't been elevated to the place you feel you're supposed to be in this game? Are you hurt because the one you truly love can't or won't be your...ride or die..your..right hand high!? Or are you just a selfish prick! And Mr. DJ(s) if this beat I'm bangin makes you feel," some kinda way" then feel free to match that bitch up and spin yo ass on to the next one! One day when you're old and grey you will look back on the days when you made a good woman turn into a vicious vindictive crazy person. But you married to the music..news flash that bitch don't love you!  The ones who sacrificed her soul..who has let her pride down who loved a broken man and loved him with that agape type of love did..she had your back! She danced to your tunes when no one else in the room did! She protected you and your interest. And you foolishly let her go! I hope that brings you comfort when your hands no longer work. When you have no more gigs to play. When people only remember you in passing.

 It could all be so simple

But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way?
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (No, it ain't workin')
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy, this is crazy (This is crazy, uh-huh!)

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself?
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we've got to do
You let go, and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (It ain't workin')
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy, this is crazy

Care for me, care for me!
I know you care for me!

There for me, there for me!
Said you'd be there for me!

Cry for me, cry for me!
You said you'd die for me!

Give to me, give to me!

Why won't you live for me?!

Sisters..hold yo head HIGH AND ALWAYS REMEMBER..YOU ARE THE BADDEST BITCH IN THE ROOM! Continue to love that brother because as much as I hate to admit it..we wouldn't be where we are in this game if it wasn't for them..but only from a far! They did not deserve the love you gave them. This is a game of chess not checkers. Protect the king..but ONLY if he treats YOU like the queen you are!!

Let The Music Play

~P

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