An open letter to my House sisters

A few months back I started saluting the women in our House music circle. Mostly because I love and admire most all of you. Another reason was because our circle is very small, and what I see and hear going on with the females in this set is sad and childish to say the least. Ive been both a victim and promoter of some of the childishness that I've seen.

First I had to step back and really take a good look at who I was/am, what role did I take in either being a victim or promoter.  hmm., let's see, I trusted too many people, made too much of my personal feelings or business known.. didn't address rumors before they got out of hand.

Now while I will not mention any names by the end of this Blog, if ya smart- and I know you are you'll be able to figure it out.  If this Blog makes you do one of the following, pick up the phone and call ya friends, shake ya head.. or ( and here's the one that makes me laugh hardest)-dislike me even more. Then good I've done my job.

I was not put on this earth for you to like me., but you will respect me! As I do not like some of you, but I DO respect you!

I've seen women who have been in this House scene dislike other women because they are new or because they are pretty, threw a party that was better then yours, have a bangin body, slept with a DJ you use to fuck with..  ( listen, they are DJs and we have what most of them want...pussy) once done with you its on to the next. Ladies, that's just men period. But in this small circle I get it! Hell, Ive lived it!  insert ANY reason. The focus should always be on the music, but rarely is. 

 I also started the sister salute to help debunk the myth that I was a shit starter.. now Here is what I am. I live out loud, I call it like I see it- sometimes I'm wrong but most often times I do try to own up to it.  I am the worst at offering up an apology- character flaw admittedly. I'm in talks with the Lord about this. Here is What I can say about myself.. when I have had an issue with any of my House sisters I do try to address it with them 1st. ( im sure that's NOT the story being told). But by the time the story hits the airwaves I'm the one in the wrong..and to think, it all started with a bus trip and the lying ass bitch I chose to do business with. I've never fully recovered from that! ( yes, i said, "lying ass bitch")- now, she had more credibility because she had been in the game way longer than I. A brief history behind the "lying ass bitch" comment" I never EVER called the hotel and got my friends locked out of their room. I told her that I would pay her back ( which I did) she knew I had some issues and wasn't going to go. Once we got to the hotel, I was advised, by her that I had my own room ( I was going to stay in a friends room to save money) Her words, " just pay me back" ok cool. nooooooo that's NOT how the story was told..and so the story goes. Now I tried to handle this privately but, ya scandalized my name! and made it a very public and ugly mess. There are several others like the one where the 50 year old 5 year old was upset at the fact that I was sitting at a table with, "her friends"..my thought, "BITCH! when did this become the United States of YOUR childish ass" and made you queen?!?
Or the one where I shared some information that I really should NOT have shared. My question is, who hasn't done this.  Or the one ( and this hurt me the most) where one of the sisters I loved the most was going to get someone or a host of people to jump on me!? really, we DO that at this age? thankfully we've mended fences. Lastly, the one where a jealous insecure chick would do ANYTHING to piss on her tree then try to act like she was completely innocent. Mind you I also tried to address concerns with her to! Because I wanted to clear the air so to speak. However she took the cowards way out in my opinion or it simply could have been she felt like she did not owe me any convo..but her actions were sophomoric at best!

These are the things I really had to think about, where do I fit in to this and what did I do to perpetuate the situation. 

There is one person I have yet to clear the air with, but I'm working on that. I loved and still love her like a sister and miss her dearly( I have your half of the Twinkie and its yours if you want it)., and would kill someone for her! But please never underestimate me, do NOT think you can call me and cuss me out ( even though, again... I was in the wrong) and things not escalate.   I ain't no punk, nor am I an ass kisser!

Ive heard, " she don't speak when shes in the club" newsflash I can barely see in the dark. I can be looking directly at you and not be able to make out who you are!

What tickles me is, you smile in your face House sisters. then go directly back and talk shit! Please please PLEASE if you don't care for me, do NOT speak to me. Cause rest assured, if I don't like you I will NOT speak! point blank period. again,  its a character flaw, me and God are in talks about this also.  I would say, - negotiations, but God doesn't negotiate.

DJs and my House brothers, you all help in these feelings that we (some not all) House sisters have towards one another, stop playing these women against each other. Women ( ...and TRUST I had to realize this to) let's try to push past this! We are too old, too educated, too fly, and too precious to be play by some (not all) sea slug ass nigga's! I won't elaborate but damn, some of you have a good thing going on at home (possibly) and you still try to have your cake and eat it too. This is across the board, meaning some of you females as well. 

We have more days behind us, then in front of us we are middle aged and we play games instead of music.

I've been fooled and been a fool- lesson learned. It hurts to have to look in the mirror and see yourself for who you are and what you have done. 

But to my House sister's let's please try to come together in love and the spirit of unity.  Aside from the music the DJs and other men come out for a little eye candy. We have all been shit starters in one way or another. I know a few who have not.. 4 to be exact. Stop disliking a person based off what you've heard. Remember there are 3 sides to every story. Their side, your side, and what actually happened. Based on your vantage point you may see the same things completely different. Just open your mouths and talk it out.. but caution this can go way wrong as well. Trust me on this, I called myself trying to talk about something and it went way left in a foolish way that is., and I felt silly and stupid after my dinner and conversation with said House sister!

We are a small community and we are some of the baddest chicks out here. That's bad meaning "good"!

I realize this Blog may make some feel, "some kinda way"- oh well I have to deal with that. 

In the mean time., Come out have a good time, wear, rock, "werk" those outfits and shoes.. Always know you ARE baddest bitch in the room. Don't spread gossip and hate. That's not what this scene is about. Its not what the music is about!

I have some issues I have to work out, cause I am by NO means perfect. If I have something to say about my House sister, its because she has done something to ME personally. For the most part I think mostly all of you are fantastic and have something to offer this scene. and I mean that from the very bottom of my heart!

And to my ride or die, Tomika Murry.. BITCH you the SHIT! There are other sisters but that one right there, I have a history with and a very close and personal bond, imma need you all to understand this! She is my ride or die even when I'm parked!

There are times I wish I could be like you.

Diplomacy is not one of my strong suits. I come across as brash, and accusatory! That's not my intent, again..I'm taking it to the Lord ( in our next session) 

Until then understand, we are all works in progress. Let's work together to make it a better scene to dance in, laugh in, cry with etc...etc.. I don't want to look at my beautiful House sisters with that side eye, I don't want to hear my name come up in a negative way., nor do I want yours to. Do NOT come up to me expressing your distaste for another House sister. Handle that shit with her directly!

The only thing I want to do is...

Let The Music Play

~P